an over flowing love'

Honestly, you may find this bizzar and very unusual, but if I could thank anyone I would thank my father in heaven, I would thank my God.

I've grown up and 10 years have gone by since my dad made a cruel decision to chose alcohol over me. I thank my Jesus because he has been here through everything in my life, he has been my father in heaven who has never let me go, and who has always been my anchor all through life's storm. God has never let me drift so far away in life's raging seas where I cant find the strength to get back, his love is my anchor that has kept me near, and though sometimes I have drifted, and walked away, his anchor is so strong and it has never and will never let me drown in this life. I thank him because he is the one treasure in my life that I can trust with all of my heart, he has never walked out on me, he has never yelled at me, he has never dissapointed me and he has never made me feel like Im worthless. He has forgiven me everytime that I have fallen, and he has been the strength that as picked me up.

I thank him because in my times of sorrows and pain, he has given me love and peace. I thank him because in my times of fear and weakness, he has given me hope and strength.
I thank him because in my times of darkness, he has shown me light.

He has shown me that 'a loss in this world, is just another gain in the kingdom.' He has given me words that I will always hold onto, and knowledge that will never leave me.

The thing about God, is that there is nothing certain in this life, except for him and his love. Anyone can hurt you here, we are human we hurt each other and we stumble period. But God sees through all of that, and he never runs out of chances for us. He died for us, he died for us.

There is nothing more beautiful than being able to have something to be certain about.
I thank him because he gave me gifts, gifts I am supposed to use to show the world him; I paint and I did not create this ability on my own, he gave me this ability.

I thank him because he never leaves me. There is a verse in the bible, and it really digs deep for me; "There is surely a future hope for you, and that hope will not be cut off.' You've never gone to far, you've never run out of chances, and God never lets you go.

All of the times I have walked out on him, I've slammed the door shut on him, he waited for hours, days, weeks and months in that doorway waiting for me to turn my direction towards him. He waited for me to turn around and notice the door has not been shut all the way. My god waits for me, and doesnt make me deserve his love. He has waiting in the doorway for me to run to him, to open the door and close what is meant to be close. He has never closed the door on me, he has never shut me out. No one on this earth would ever forgive me the way he does, they would never wait for me to run back, they would never show an over flowing cup of love, no one on this earth could do those things, because we are all human. But God, he can show you a way, he can show you the light, and he can give you answers.

So if there is one person I can thank in my life, It would be my Jesus, My God, my heavenly Father. Without him, I wouldnt be here, and without him I would be lost.